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     So bored..just got home from wally werld a lil bit ago. Got new outfit, just for the half day tomorrow. then we have christmas break, yes! =o] soo happy. well kinda, idk. cuz i doubt i'm really going to do anything.. theres really no one to do anything will, im not sure. saturday, i think im going to my first party! yes! i hope so anyways.. thatll be so cool. time to chill with friends i suppose. im not supposed to be on the computer & i cant go to nicks house for the rest of the month. all because i said "thats nice" & over some gingerbread cookie dough. but thats ok, i still go on the computer & im not going to miss going to Nicks house. so, its straight.

             i like writing on xanga. its cooool. like, not knowing if people even read but you figure they wont but they still could. i dont know. ahah. hmm. man.. lifes been really weird.. theres so much drama going on, especially at home with parents & all. im wanting to get emancipated. its not all because of my rents. im going to spend like a month planning out everything. like finance, place to stay, etc. i might change my mind, not sure.

         i dont do anything any more. well its not like i did much anyways but it was more than now. really, the only person i hang with his my boyfriend. i dont know why. its just like that though. there was only one other person i use to do everything with and for some reason that just stopped. not too sure why, it just did though. anyways, thats all about to change. im so sick of doing nothing, im mean really. 

       so after this party saturday, maybe itll open up some "connections" and i'll chill with more people and what not. no one in particular, i just need someone else other than the boyfriend. i have great friends at school but we dont do anything out of school. soo yeha, i sure hope that changes.. i bet my rents will like it if i hang with more girlies, lol.. but i dont know..

          im pretty much still friends with all my older friends.. not that i ever really had any but we're just not as close. like John- mostly him; no one else really talks to me other than him && i still get Johny hugs! =oP, Josh; still kinda talk to him, still friends with Kirsten, i have no idea whats up with Sydney.. lately shes been some what out of it. i have a faint idea of why but im not too sure.. im guessing we're still friends, its just this week shes been all weirdo. i dont know whats up.. um. there was no one else i was really friends with. oh yeah, Amy, how could i forget. we use to say hi, but now we dont even do that any more. i dont know why. shes deffintely changed, got a hair cut & hangs with some girls i use to find quite annoying. she looks happy though & better with her hair. so thats good for her.  um, theres Brandi.. no i didnt forget about you.. haha.. you gotta save the best for last..duhh well then, i dont know whats up with her.. i really dont. you say i've abandoned you but i havent gone any where? im still here. i guess we've just kind of grown apart, ya know.. it happens, i suppose its totally normal huh.. so much for all that stuff about growing old together. =oP lol..yeha..we had good times. really good times. haha, i better not even start naming stuff because i dont want to die laughing..

       anyways. new friends? at school. eh, i have no clue. liiike. really cool people. that i just adore omg. =] Kirsten, shes in tenth, i just met her this year. um.. Jessi, lol, i've known her since like fifth grade, we're just now starting to be friends though. omg shes an effin trip! Angie, i guess. shes mad chill. very cute girl & funny. we dont really talk though other than hi & smile & crack up. lol..  shoot, i dont know. theres alot of really cool people i talk to alot.. Noah, for one. hes hilarious. =oP hmm.. Franciso, omg.. my sides hurt after talking to that foo! lol hes such a friggen cutie. speaking of cuties, theres Chase. he rides my bus. lol hes so cool. humm. just now talking to Shannon more, shes a goofy one. i admire her, shes really freaking pretty..& her cuz, Bethany we talk too. shes funny. =o] hmmmmmmm.. who else. Ohh, theres Jason. crazy black kid. lol hes tight though. Nichelle!  funny & loud as hell. um.. Debra "skeet skeet" lol. long story! Kelly, Courtney, Katrina..<-- shes kinda gettin annoying. idk.. umm. Rheisa.. HAHA. Brandi.. =oP yeha.. uhh John Biasi? we kind of talk not really but hes pretty cool. OHHHHHH, and Jesse! how could i forget that hoe. geez. way too many people i swear.. erm. who else for gods sake! Brittany! Lil' John, Marissa; she just came back. her got a lil one. =] [awww] umm. i talk to my cuz more now, Kandice.. Abby, the one who use to despise me lol we're cool now. hmm.. Nick, the really fine guy, hes chill but...not really friend material.. just because. umm.. lets see. o0o i forget the girls name cuz its hard. but shes pretty, shes black, with this gold/blonde dyed hair. mad funny.

       errrrrrm. omfg!! HOW COULD I FORGET Sabina! Im sooooo sorry hun! lol. shes pretty much my closet friend right now. =/ shes really cool. && funny && pretty. im jealous as hell.. lol. ok, sorry for everyone i cant think of right now.. I love you! oh yeaha, gotta sho mad props for my older bro, Justin. i love ya! & mad love to my homie G dizzle dawg weirdo. Juan. =o] i love ya too! && for everyone else, i love you guys too. k? mwah!

Update: My lil bro is getting cuter each day! lol. I LOVE HIM! [Kylan] I cant wait til i get one of my own......well i can, shoot! && i will! but its gona be great. lol =o] maybe in about 20 years.. hahaha.

I love you Nick..with all my heart. =o] getting closer & closer each day.. it feels like it anyway! oo wee. i just rhymed while tryna be all..smoochy. hah! i deserve a cookie!..!!! i did it again! what now biotches!.. ^_^

kind of sitting here.. needing someone to talk to.. unfortunately theres no one to talk to.. & i would write a blog on myspace but then the person thats on my mind might see it.. & since no one sees this one anyway, it's all good.. i just dont know what to do anymore.. so lost...... it sucks so bad life is so good, yet so not good.. [sigh] so many different things on my mind i dont even know what to type down.. mann.. this wasn't any help. ='[[